TO LOVE OF MY LIFE

A Letter To my Love: 

Where to even begin? I am writing to you today to remind you of how much I love you.

Yes, I know it is not your birthday, or Valentine’s Day, or any other special occasion. It’s just an ordinary day; a Thursday to be exact.

I’m writing to you today because I just came to the realization that life has been extremely chaotic lately and I have been selfishly choosing to focus on myself instead of you and our relationship.

I would first like to start off by telling you that never in my life had I thought that I would ever find someone who loves me the way you do.  Not that I believed that I was incapable of being loved, but I simply could not fathom finding someone who could ever appreciate and cherish me the way I dreamed about. That is, until you walked into my life. Even when life gets in the way, I still love you more than words can describe. You are constantly on my mind as I go about my everyday business, either directly or subconsciously in the back of my head. You are with me in every single thing I do, and everywhere I go.

You are my one and only; my present, and future; my soulmate.

What exactly is a soulmate? Does every single person in the world have one? Do each of us individuals only get one shot at being matched up with one other person in the entire world? I may not have all of the answers, but I know one thing to be true. You are my soulmate. You make my soul happy. You are my love, companion, and above all, my best friend. I truly believe that there is not one other person in the world who gets my humor, my mannerisms, and my heart like you do. If you are not my intended soulmate from the Maker, then I don’t ever want to meet the one who was instead intended for me.

I want you to know how much I appreciate you. I may not tell you enough, or show it. You do so many little things for me that go unnoticed. I want to apologize for the moments when I was blind to see what you do for me; I want to apologize if I have ever overlooked you. I want you to know that even when I am incapable of seeing how lucky and blessed I am to have you, I still am forever thankful.

I want you to know that our friendship means everything to me, and that I simply could not survive in this crazy world without you. You give me the truth when I need to hear it, courage when I need confidence, and love when I am flawed. There is no one else I would rather lay up at night and talk with about crazy things that only the two of us could even think of. There is no one else who I would rather travel with, see the world, and experience new adventures with. There is no one else who simply could ever get me the way you do.

You have given me a safe haven to be myself and not be ashamed of all of the parts that make up my soul. You give me security that makes me feel safe and centered; a shoulder to cry on when needed and a hand to hold when I am lost in the dark. I know that whatever life throws my way, I will be able to handle it because you are at my side. There is nothing that we could never face together. Without you, I am weak. With you, I am strong and capable of anything I set my mind to.

I want to thank you for giving me love when I am undeserving. For your forgiveness when I make mistakes and hurt you with my dragging words and actions; for your unwavering faithfulness to our relationship. For your kind and gentle touch when you comfort me; for your ability to apologize when you are in the wrong and take responsibility for your actions. You have taught me so much about tenderness and unconditional love, even when it is hard to give.

I want to thank you for your continued support and faith in me as I journey through my endeavors. You have never once doubted me, told me I should give up, or told me that I could not do something. Your positive and confidence in me continues to baffle me each day. I know that if I ever need a pick-me-up or someone to tell me, “Keep trying,” or “Don’t give up,” I know I can turn to you. You are my support system and my fan club; my motivation to push myself and always reach for bigger and higher goals. You have taught me to believe in myself and to appreciate my own worth, a task that is not always easy.

If I were to suddenly leave this world sooner than later, I would be overjoyed that I experienced such a rare and honest form of love. To have been loved and cherished by someone wholeheartedly is a once- in-a-lifetime opportunity. Our relationship is my most treasured possession, and I will take this love with me everywhere I go.

If you ever feel like I am taking you for granted, please open up this letter. Let it be a reminder of how I feel about our relationship and its worth to me. Please remember how much I love you. I loved you the minute our eyes first met. I love you deeply, and I always will.

THANK YOU FOR CHERISHING MY LIFE

XOXO

HET.